That's the way I see it

Today is more of a bits and pieces rant, inspired by something that I saw whilst coming out of my inspiring contract lecture today. Now, this isn't meant to be racist although it is racially specific in that I've noticed this particular trait only with Asians, more so Asian females. Now, why do they feel c0mpelled to wave hello or goodby when they're standing right in front of the person that they're waving too ? What's up with that ? It's a wave at about chest height when the intended recipient is virtually in their personal space. I mean, isn't a wave meant to be eye catching rather than a superfluous function ? Ahhh....s0me of the silly things I think about. It's like pointing to your watch when asking the time, why ? I use to do that myself until it clicked with me that it's kind of silly. It's like that well known e-mail that went around that said "...I mean do I point to my D**k when I'm going to take a p*ss ?" - although I think that would be kind of amusing to adopt.

Another useless item, the old you say Tomato, I say Tomato argument (doesn't have the same impact when you write it, does it ?). Anyway, have you ever heard someone actually say PO - TAH - TO instead of PO-TAY-TO ?? No, neither have I. So these days you can guess what my pronunciation has been.

Wow - now we get to the part of the rant where I kind of get serious ? Huh ? Here we are in late March, of a year that on a personal level had sucked like a champanzee in a taxi.....again, huh ??? It kind of reminds me of a period of time a few years ago, I'm not sure if I did an intentional clean out or if it was circumstantial (more so that later) but I changed absolutely everything...I was miserable for a long time for it and for the reasons as to why I did things but they happened. My reasons at the moment are different but somehow I don't feel like I belong anymore or maybe I'm just tired of the ways things are. I think it's the same thing a business does when its grown to fast or went down a path only to find it lost itself somewhere along the way. The core stays the same but there's always a lot of peripheral items that need to be changed in order to get back to the true meaning of what the business was. With me, it's about thinking of what I am, what am I prepared to accept and how is my acceptance in the past changed my core self. As I've been told a number of times, I'm passive and I accept more than the average person. Yup - that's true. So, what do I do about that ? What am I willing to sacrifice of myself to be something I'm not or to enjoy things that are not necessarily part of my core ? Yeah - this sounds like a load of tripe and if I was reading it anywhere else I'd say - "that's bullshit" but that's what I enjoy about writing, I make sense to me a lot of the time and I express myself far better in this form than any other. So, maybe the crux decision is that I need to be a little more selfish with me and deal with things more critical to who I am. Incidentally, this isn't aimed at anyone directly so assumptions as to whom I maybe aiming this at are purely speculative and are as correct John Howard's policy on refugees.